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Love is a messy thing- I don't want to get my hands dirty.

Lately, i've had a plentiful amount of romantic encounters/opportunities. In all cases, there has been physical attraction. However, in my mind (no matter how hard I try not to) I am comparing these suitable bachelors to you. They do not even hold a candle up to you. I feel like I'm stuck in quicksand, slowly sinking without a method of escape.
I don't know if i'll ever be able to form an emotional bond with anyone. If I try, your face comes up in the back of my mind. Thus far, my efforts are futile.
I'm not sad, happy, frustrated, depressed. On the contrary, this makes me feel void of all emotions. I feel like i'm just a physical emotionless machine.
Someone needs to wake me up from this weird trance.

Are you even out there somewhere?