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Lately, I've been feeling extremely ambitious.
Now that my first year of college has come to an end, I'm reflecting on my grades and am extremely pleased with myself. (This is in no way supposed to be a narcissistic blog, let me assure you). It just made me realize that I am fully capable of doing whatever my heart so desires if I really put my mind to it.
I'm self-motivated, driven, and will be successful. What is success, you ask? Success is only a state of mind! Bah!
:)

Random: I want to transfer to Rice...really bad.
Hopefully I can maintain my GPA because I will be applying soon.
:)
Also, I've REALLY been abusing these smiley faces lately in both txt msgs, online, and in person.
:) :) :)
:):)
:)

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Let the summer of self-actualization commence!

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Love is a messy thing- I don't want to get my hands dirty.

Lately, i've had a plentiful amount of romantic encounters/opportunities. In all cases, there has been physical attraction. However, in my mind (no matter how hard I try not to) I am comparing these suitable bachelors to you. They do not even hold a candle up to you. I feel like I'm stuck in quicksand, slowly sinking without a method of escape.
I don't know if i'll ever be able to form an emotional bond with anyone. If I try, your face comes up in the back of my mind. Thus far, my efforts are futile.
I'm not sad, happy, frustrated, depressed. On the contrary, this makes me feel void of all emotions. I feel like i'm just a physical emotionless machine.
Someone needs to wake me up from this weird trance.

Are you even out there somewhere?