I've been thinking...
I feel dependent. I want to feel independent because I know that is my true nature. However, I can't seem to embrace this independence. I'm really confused about my feelings.
Part of my doesn't want to let go. I can't explain my reasoning behind this. I feel a mutual possession. You're mine and I'm wholeheartedly yours. Like you're my rock, my inspiration. I guess this is partially why I feel dependent.

But the other part of me is screaming at me to let go. "There's many fish in the sea, why settle for the first catch when you can keep fishing?" I feel really guilty about having these feelings but they won't subside. I'm young. I should be exploring my options.
I know we've decided to have an open relationship, but I can't push aside that exclusive/possessive/dependent feeling.