tears

i can barely see the keyboard i'm crying so hard.
i dont know if it's because my jaw is throbbing in pain
or if it's because i'm already starting to miss him and he's not even gone yet.
maybe it's a combination of both.

i've been confined to my bed for the past 2 days. i havn't seen daylight and i've only seen my family and boyfriend.
where the hell are my friends?
i'm gonna go take some more hydro codeine and ketorolac to numb my physical pain and maybe i'll drift off to sleep